Splinter

What is it? That feeling…. the one you are afraid to pursue. That thread that dangles at the back corner of your mind begging to be pulled. That yearning, that desire, that hunger for purpose, for knowledge, for reason, for choice. The duality of feeling completely connected to every living being in the known existence, as well as feeling completely and utterly alone. The feeling you get when you watch a riveting film, see a piece of art that speaks to you, hear a song that moves you to tears, complete a experience that will alter life as you know it.

Every now and then I get that feeling, a tiny almost unmeasurable sampling of something, a  incomprehensible glimpse of the great beyond/great void.  There’s a thread, a bridge, a helix, a make up…..something that we all feel, that we all relate to, that notion in our brains that separates us from all others living things on earth, self awareness? sense of purpose? existential awareness? What is this, what is life, why are we here, is life only as meaningful or purpose driven as we decide it to be or is there a goal, objective, path that is predesignated. Is it for success, faith, virtue, reproduction, knowledge, despair, death, suffering? Will there be a review? a grade? a judgement?